I am pretty sure that I am now addicted to stress!
Seriously, I am not happy if I am not stressing about something. I had 2 days
of no stress before I started in about financial planning, remodeling, getting
a residency/job, and reorganizing my whole life post school. I have made spread
sheets, watched financial videos, and started inquiring about financial
advisers from some trusted individuals. That is just for the finance obsession.
It doesn’t even cover the other activities I am engaged in with my other
stressful obsessions!
I think that nursing school has crossed some wires in my
brain. Being under constant stress has become the normal place my body and mind
like to be at. It is so unhealthy. The analyzer in me is orgasmic though! All
the data collection and trying to organize thoughts and planning! The problem
comes in the unknowns and being in a place in which I am unable to follow through
with plans at the moment. It causes tension in my shoulders and kind of makes
me irritable! The great news is I will be able to start taking steps very soon,
so hopefully the stress will start to subside.
I am doing a little better in the last couple of days with
my food. I went shopping so I have good things at home to eat. I planned on
baking some chicken to add to salads and quinoa bowls last night, so I
preheated the oven. Well, I preheated the oven all night! LOL! I got
sidetracked by one of my obsessions last night and forgot to bake the chicken.
Luckily it was in the refrigerator. When I came to the realization that the
oven was still on…I just tossed the chicken in. Waste of energy, but what can a
girl do about it after the fact?
Tomorrow I find out
about a residency position I have applied for. I am so nervous! It would be
such an amazing opportunity. I would have to cancel most of my plans for the
rest of summer, but I would be more than happy to do so!
So a nurse residency is usually 12 weeks long. The one I am
up for is at MultiCare on the medical/surgical unit. All residencies are a
little different, but I will tell you how MultiCare runs their program. My
shift will be the night shift (3-11 pm) and I will work throughout the week and every other weekend. I
will have classroom training as well as on the job training. I will have a
preceptor, very much like my senior practicum at Children’s Hospital. I will
start off by shadowing the preceptor and gradually start taking on his/her patients.
The goal for both MultiCare and myself is for me to be hired at the end of the
12 week residency. If for some reason they choose not to hire me on the floor
my residency was on or I choose not to take the job, I owe them $2,000 for the
training. They “loan” me $2,000 for the training. If I get hired, then I have
to work on the floor for a year or I have to pay them back at a prorated cost if I leave before the year is up.
That is the way it goes! I do not anticipate too much trouble here. If I get
the residency, I am sure I will do well and be offered the job. I have to trust
that I learned what I needed to for a good foundation and I have always done
well in clincials.
Alan comes home today. I can’t wait! He has been gone since Wednesday.
He went to Montana with his dad, one of his brothers, and his friend for their annual
fishing trip. I am sure Alan will smell wonderful when he gets home! I love
when he gets home after his fishing trip. He is so relaxed and really just has
a wonderful time. He always has a few funny stories to share. It will be sad
when his dad is not able to take that trip anymore. These are cherished
memories they are making!
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