Leaning in!!!!

You know...I am still searching for something. I don't know what it is. I still feel like I am not reaching the potential I have in me. I am not living to the fullest. Maybe it is because I am still in school and feel stuck in it. I really can't focus on anything else right now. I have less than 2 months to go, but still. I think that because I should have graduated over 4 months ago, my brain and body are beyond over it already. It wasn't like I took a pleasure cruise during my time off either. Don't get me wrong, I have had great vacations along the way; but chemo was not really the break that would have been nice to have. Except for my medically induced  time off of school, I have been hitting it hard for almost 4 years now. I am really ready to be done!

I have a lot of little nitnoid tasks to accomplish. I need to just spend one day and get them all out of the way! Maybe Monday after class. I have a bunch of things to email people, clinical paperwork to finish, projects to get started, and I have to start the process to take my NCLEX and get my license! I think I will feel better once I am done with that. I won't have some many little nagging things floating around in my brain.

This weekend should be really good. I am going to spend the weekend with my girlfriend and fellow classmate, Michelle. We are going to study all day tomorrow then I am taking her out on the town tomorrow night. I can't wait. I have such a fun night planned. It is going to be a fishy realness extravaganza! Then more studying on Sunday. Hope Michelle can study with a hangover, because girl I am driving!

Things are going very well at my preceptorship! I am loving every minute of it, and can only hope to be one of the few nurses they might hire with an associates instead of a bachelors. One way or another I will work there, even if I have to gain experience and finish my degree first. I will get there.

Alan and I went looking at things for remodeling the house today. It is weird because we are not even sure we will be staying in the house. Some of the things we need to do, but others are things we would like to do if we stay there or might make the house look nicer if we decide to sell. That all depends on where I get a job though. If I get a job in Seattle, we are moving pretty soon. It is questionable if we will move if I get a job in Tacoma, and we won't move if I find something close to here. I need everyone to cross their fingers, toes, whatever you can cross, and prayer to whatever deity you pray to, or send me good vibes that I get a job in Seattle! It will take persistence and maybe even a miracle, but it is what I want.

There is also the opportunity for BSN (bachelors) maybe this September. Bellevue College is going to start a new program in the fall. They are staying pretty tight lipped about it since they have not actually received approval from the state for it yet. I am hoping that I can apply and will be accepted. That I can put on my resume and it could help me get that job I want in Seattle. It also complicates timelines on other things I want to do, but we will work around it best we can. Getting a bachelors is becoming ever more important in nursing.

Well, I have rambled on enough...
Until we meet again hunties!