Another milestone!

I went on my first full walk in our usual spot in the woods since October today! It was amazing. It was a little tough in spots since there are still trees down from the ice storm, but Alan helped me get over the trees when I needed it. I missed walking in the woods so much, and I enjoyed being out there just talking with Alan and watching Loki. For about an hour I got to pretend that things were normal. I was not sick and Alan didn’t have to deal with all the issues that come from having a wife with cancer. We were just us with no worries or cares.

The picture of me on the other side of the fence where we start our walk in the woods.

My mom also came home tonight. I missed her so much. It is nice to have her close and, I really am dreading the day she has to go home for good. She has been such a source of comfort and understanding. She has really been able to relate to my situation and feelings since she has cancer as well. She has already been where I have been. It has been such a comfort to have her not only because she is my mommy, but because she is the only one in my life who knows exactly how I feel.

I went and spent a couple of days with my in-laws. I am so lucky to have such great in-laws and have such a great relationship with them. My mother-in-law, Carol, and I did some quilting, talked, and just had some great quality time together. I also spent time with my father-in-law, Roger. We ran some errands together and had some great bonding time too. We all went out to eat at the Lemon Grass Café in Olympia. It is a Thai food restaurant and very yummy. I was in great spirits and walking around. I think it was very reassuring for them to see me doing so well.

I did get my school work turned in a few days ago and it is really nice to know it is all done. I didn’t have to have it in until next week, but I will be busy or chemo sick. I didn’t want to risk not getting it in. I actually wanted to get it done much sooner, but between out of state visitors, doctor appointments, chemo, being sick, and chemo brain that just didn’t happen. I was surprised how long it took me to do it. It took me much longer to get it done than I would have before. The longer I go through this the worse the chemo brain gets too. Some days are not that bad, but other days it is like I have half a brain, if that.

I probably won’t do another blog until Tuesday, maybe later. I have my PET scan on Tuesday and chemo on Wednesday, but I will have a lot of information to pass on then. We will find out on Wednesday about how many chemos we have left and what the rest of my process will be. In all honesty, if the news is not what I want it to be, I doubt I will blog before next weekend. I will probably be a little devastated if we find out that I have eight chemos to do, or if we add more treatments like radiation to the extra chemos. I am sure that will not be the case though. I feel it in my heart that this will all be over in April. April 21^st will be the day that I will not feel sick anymore and will have no more chemo to look forward too. I cannot wait.