Blessed in sickness

Well yesterday was no picnic. I was so nauseous. I took all of the meds they give me to alleviate nausea and vomiting, but it only kept me from vomiting. I was sick until sometime between 3 and 4 this morning. It was pretty awful really, but we got through it. The nausea may not have been so bad through the night if I wasn't waking up every 30-40 minutes because of night sweats. Doesn't it sound like fun? I am sure you all want to ride the cancer roller coaster now!

Today started off not so well. I spent the morning watching the last disc of season 4 and most of the very short season 5 of SATC. I didn't have it in me to do anything else. I still felt pretty crappy although my nausea wasn't nearly as bad, the prednisone took over pretty quick. I don't think I can say it enough how much I hate that stuff.

The afternoon hasn't been so bad. I actually went downstairs to have lunch with mom. We caught up on a couple of our shows. I was feeling better. I listened to Norah Jones' The Fall while I shaved my head, took a shower, and got ready for the evening. Alan got home, and I was so glad to see him. Unfortunately my mom accidentally used the carpet fresh that turns my stomach when she vacuumed the floor while I was in the shower. I am now back upstairs in my chair. She felt bad, but the good news is she used the last bit of it!

One thing that continues to amaze me is the continued support I get from everyone. There is always the initial support, cards, texts, emails, and phone calls; but I am still receiving so much support! It really touches my heart when people reach out to me. These are the people who I will cherish forever. Their support and love means more than I could ever express. It more than makes up for the people who have disappeared from my life, and yes there have been a few.  

All in all, my spirits are high today. I think that even though I feel bad, being in good spirits really helps. I look around and feel so lucky. Things are going so well with my cancer so far, I love my husband who loves me more than I dreamed anyone could, my mother would move mountains for me, and I my future is going to be everything I ever wanted to be...happy. I feel these things in my bones, yes even in the cancerous ones!