Friday, February 24, 2012

Chemo brain and other misc. topics...

Oh boy am I sore today! My calves are on fire when I move. I walked 2 miles yesterday! It felt great and I am glad I did it. Yes, I used my crutches. It is still amazing to me that I am able to do this. Two months ago I was not even able to walk 100 ft with my crutches without getting tired and my arm/shoulder hurting. I will continue to push myself physically, because I do not want to be using a walker for very long. If I can build my stamina and strength now, the walker and crutches will be used for only a short while.

My chemo brain has gotten worse. I have a hard time with reading and writing. I will have to read this several times before posting it. Even then, I will still have mistakes. I tried reading books, but I have had to read the same sentence or paragraph several times to understand what I am reading, even with young adult books. I was driving to places in Seattle I have been to a hundred times and couldn't figure out how to get where we were going. I lose things all the time. I cannot remember where I put things. My thoughts get mixed up all the time and I wind up confusing myself trying to figure it out. Talking on the phone is so hard. I often pretend I understand what someone has said because I get so tired of asking people to repeat themselves. It's like my brain cannot translate what they are saying into English. My short term memory is also affected. The strange part is that is it inconsistent. Some days are fine, others not. I may have a bad morning, but the afternoon will be better. It is all very strange.

I made my mala bead chain. I picked yellow turquoise stone, which is actually a greenish color and expensive. I only made half a mala chain because the beads are expensive. I will get the rest of it later, but hopefully soon. I picked something green because it is the color for healing. I looked around for a long time and just found I was drawn to the yellow turquoise. I want this chain to be personal and meaningful. I think I accomplished that. If you see me with it around my wrist, you will know what it is. I will start doing my affirmations today!

I did a photo shoot with a friend yesterday. I was fun talking to him, and I hope he got something he likes. It was a lot of fun to just be in the studio again. I have found I have the photography bug again. I think I might figure out some project for me to do. Hopefully I will have a picture to show you guys sometime in the near future.

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