I have noticed that I have been losing my patients lately. My frustration over my situation has started to build, and unfortunately I tend to take it out on my mother the most. Little things irritate me or anger me easily. I really do think it has more to do with my feelings of not having any control over many aspects of my life right now and being cooped up in the house so much. The routine of cancer is getting old and I am having a harder time mentally with it. I need to not take it out on my loved ones.
I am looking forward to finding out how many chemos I have. I really feel that I will only have to do six, and if I only have six the light at the end of the tunnel will be visible and bright. We won't get into what it will mean if I have eight. I don't want to think about that.
I will be purchasing some mala beads or making my own mala bead necklace and start my affirmations and meditation. I really think that it will help with my frustration and help give me some clarity. I have had an inner peace up to this point. I want to keep it that way.
I think we have both been guilty of this! I love you and believe we have both move past it. The past two days have been so nice. I love our walks. I can actually call them that now that we are both walking! I am so proud of you and your strength. Spring has sprung!
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